However I need to be objective, I cannot change the past. Ruth was my wife for 12 years who bore 3 lovely children who look like her (and unfortunately for them, like me too). There are more progressive widows who I talk to a lot who have dealt with these demons and I find them the biggest source of strength and joy at the moment.
In 2 weeks time I will be heading upto Dudley to meet 89 of these more "fun loving" widows for a Christmas meal, disco and general chit chat. I have been out for a meal as a group and also with a few people individually who have lost their partners and all of them want the same thing and that's the company of others. I am smiling again now I have met like minded people who understand first hand what I have been through.
No one likes sitting at home alone in the evening drinking wine or beer. I have proven to myself (and others) that I do not need the drink but I enjoy it - and for me there is a difference. So the message in this rambling passage is grab a bottle of wine and pop around to any friend who is on their own this evening and have a chat. They will appreciate the company. (p.s. I have a thing for Red Wine, Cheese and Crackers!)
Night all.
x
